I dreamt I was a bomb last night. It may have been the worst dream I've ever had.

Yummo

I take back every bad thing I've ever said about RuSan's.

867-5309

I remembered a phone number today that I haven't called in, like, 4 years. Granted, I used to call it daily, but why remember it now? A few months ago I tried to remember it, just to see if I could, and...nothing. Today, out of the blue, there it was.

Found Wisdom

I am willing to consider that there is another way to adjust.

I don't know where I found this, but it's been oddly reassuring the last week to look up and see it stuck to my computer screen.

Willing to consider...it doesn't mean that there is necessarily another answer or that if there is, that it's the right one. All you have to do is take it into consideration. Look at it from another side. Give it a chance. Suspend your preconceived notions. Open your mind a bit.

I would assume that most problems have many possible solutions - several of which that could be considered a "good solution," so why not give some extra consideration to all the other ways you could react to a situation? As a hard-headed only child, it's sometimes hard to remember that. Especially when a certain situation could have lots of possible resolutions to it (and you're really only willing to consider one). Not sure what you do then. Force it until it breaks, I guess. I've always had great sucess with that. Stubborness may be my greatest flaw and greatest attribute. Funny how that works, huh?

What now?

Done. 759 pages in 16 hours (actually, 10 since I was asleep for 6 of those hours). Sometimes I scare myself. I have a total book hangover. I look deranged. I haven't eaten all day. Perhaps I should eat. And shower.

What happens when right doesn't feel right?

I'm doing the right thing. I'm doing the right thing. I'm doing the right thing. I'm doing the right thing. I'm doing the right thing. I'm doing the right thing. I'm doing the right thing. I'm doing the right thing.

Right?

It's a seller's market

Tell 'em that the house is not for sale
We're still livin' here, how come nobody can tell

Tell 'em that the house is not for sale
We could grab a couple sheets, yeah, give 'em quite a scare

-Ryan Adams

(maybe it's time to think about selling)

I want...I want...I want...I want...

I am a yearner...I yearn for things.

I saw a commercial for a pill that promises to offer you relief from urges. Of course, it's relief from an overactive bladder, but it got me thinking; I need that pill for my existential self. If only I could have relief from my urges. I could probably use that pill on a daily basis for one thing or another.

More happiness that money can buy and some that it can't

Introducing my new furniture. TA DA! It makes me very happy. It was a little more than $3 though. Interestingly, the circumstances around it being delivered make me just as happy as the new furniture does.

I've been extremely blessed this week by easy sailing. Easy sailing is not something I usually expect. Crisis? Plague? Nuclear explosion? That's what I usually expect (could it be that I get these things because they're what I expect?). But, I think because I've been having a stressful time the last couple of weeks, God decided to take some roadblocks out of my way.

I have a great friend who let me borrow his car while mine was in the shop. My car bill was $0, even though they did a lot of work figuring out what was wrong with it to begin with. WalMart (of all places) replaced my tire for free; I didn't even have to resort to threats! My furniture was delivered 10 minutes BEFORE the delivery window - even on Friday the 13th. Seriously, if any one of these things had gone wrong, it would have added so much extra stress that I prolly would have had my own nuclear explosion. But no, everything was fine. That's an unbelievable blessing, and I can't even express how grateful I am for all the things that somehow managed to go right.

LIFE IS GOOD.

Happiness is stupid stuff I don't need

Ok, I can appreciate the ridiculousness of the title of this post, but this little travel mug makes me insanely happy for several reasons. #1, it's small and cute; it's actually quite tiny (8 oz.) compared to other travel mugs. I feel deeply that this is the perfect size for a travel mug because #2, it just fits a cup of my equally happy-making tea in the morning. And #3, it was on clearance for like $3. So it's happiness at a bargain basement price. How can you look at it and not be happy?

Russian Roulette

I feel like I'm playing Russian Roulette every time I drive my car. I've taken to driving on secondary roads to try to prevent a fiery crash and my untimely death. Think I'll get that taken care of tonight.

If words meant anything

If I don't say this now I will surely break
As I'm leaving the one I want to take
Forgive the urgency but hurry up and wait
My heart has started to separate

Oh, oh, oh
Be my baby
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
I'll look after you

There now, steady love, so few come and don't go
Will you, won't you, be the one I always know
When I'm losing my control, the city spins around
You're the only one who knows, you slow it down

The Fray "Look After You"

Then Again, It Just May Be

Well my dad told me one-day son, this girl will think of what she’s done
And hurting you will be the first of many more regrets to come.
And he said if she doesn’t call then it’s her fault and it’s her loss.
I say it’s not that simple see, but then again it just may be.

The Avett Brothers "I Would Be Sad"

Then again, it just may be. I love it.

Crash (I'm the last splash)

I'm having a weird blood sugar moment. I hate when this happens. I'm all shaky and weak and it leads me to eat a lot of weird stuff just trying to get everything back on track. A couple of almonds, some whole wheat wheat thins and a glass of orange juice.